A reading of "Dying Song" by me...

I've finally manage to find how to express what this song means for me !!!! After 3 years after I first heard it, and now I've understood why it made me feel so good when I heard it first in 2006... I just couldn't express it, but now....





Here is a kind of commentary by me about this wonderful song :

"Dying Song

I'm going away forever

I'm going away forever

Never coming back this way

Never coming back to this place

What I need is a heaven

What I really need is a heaven

A place to go where I can really be

A place to go where

I can really be

Where I can really be

Dreaming my life away counts for nothing

Dreaming my life away counts for nothing

But nothing ever is the end

No nothing ever is the end

It's sure been a full life for me baby

It's sure been a full life for me yeh

It's sure been a full life for me baby

It's sure been a full life for me

It's sure been a full life for me baby

It's sure been a full life for me yeh

It's sure been a full life for me baby

It's sure been a full life for me

It's sure been a full life for me baby

It's sure been a full life for me yeh

It's sure been a full life for me yeeaah

It's sure been a full life for me..."

To me, this is a kind of hymn to the life that you've lead before your death.

That you musn't regret anything that happened in your life, and that you musn't be affraid to die, now that you've reviewed all your life...

It's a little like in the song "Ascension" to me, even if it's not the same ending, as in Ascension there's a kind of rebirth... Here it's a human being confronted to his own death and reviewing all that He lived in his life...

I love so much this song... Even if it may sound strange, it's so sad and optmistic at the same time... you know ?

I'd really like to die with this state of mind... Not being affraid of dying, not regreting anything in my life... Be happy to enter the last phase of your life... Be at peace with yourself...I think it needs a lot of work to achieve this point of your life... It's not the same thing as a suicide, it's compeletely different to me, it's the idea of accepting your own death, thinking about all you achieved in your life... And that "Nothing Ever is the End" because you've left something behind yourself, artistically or humanly, anyway, that you've left your trace behind yourself...

It's really weird, because I'm sure most of people see this song as a sad song or a suicide hymn, but, maybe because of what I was living at the time I first heard it, I prefer to see this wonderful song as optimistic...

And yes, it is possible to write songs about death that are optimistic... and that's the best songs ever, because they go beyond the only sad and depressing image of death that all the world has...

Death is not so bad when you know that it's the good time for it and that you've at least achieved something in your life...

Something really personal about "I'm Around"

I'll warn you before you read: this won't be about John Frusciante, but about the effect one of his song, "I'm Around" had on me the first time I heard it, listening carefully to the lyrics, and why it is now engraved in my memory... It's more about personal view than John Frusciante only...

So if you still want to read it, I'll thank you from all my heart, because this is something that really counts for me, and that I've not been able to tell anyone else....

Thank you for your attention...

"I'm Around

You know I'm around you

I woundn't be if I didn't love you

I'm going to run through you

You know you're quite a character

It goes that I haven't got a care

When we float down the river

I wonder will I lose you

When we roam through a blizzard

We'll joke and have another cry

I hope I'm not the other guy

We'll never scale those heights again

We've lost our daugther

Let's plan to hide from all our friends

In silent watersBe careful of what you are

What you see is just a small part

You must look for yourself in others

And all the places that you go

You see that they are part of you

I want to again be holding hands

With you underwater

And couldn't we get a second chance

To go back and start over

I was thinking before

That it was all my fault

We Dropped the baton

Sunday waves and makes faces at us all the time

And I'm wondering what I call mine

Sunday waves and makes faces all the time

And I'm wondering what I call mine..."

Well, How shall I begin ? There's so much to tell, you know ?

First, I think this song has become my favorite John Frusciante's song... Because it's so wonderful, sensitive, and it means so much to me now...

Actually, I discovered it back in October 2007, a really strange, weird and moving period when I think back to these days, compare to now where everyting seems to be all written for my future... I discovered it from a French Blog (and yes, sorry everyone, I'm French...), where there were some translations of John's lyrics. Here is the Blog:

http://frusciante76.skyrock.com/8.html

I think there's still a comment that I put on the article with 'I'm Around" translation !!! I was "Caronebraska" at the time... But I no longer have this blog for personal reasons...

Well... Now comes the emotive part...

Well.. I really don't know how to tell all that I feel... But I'm gonna try...
This was late at night at think, around 12 P.M., even if I was still going to High School at the time... This was a really beautiful time where I didn't care if I went to sleep at 2 A.M knowing that I'll wake up only 4 hours later and will sleep in Philosophy lesson in the afternoon... I thought there were more interessant things to do in life than High School...

Well... My mom, whom I adore, had just begun a divorce procedure a month ago I think, and all that I wanted for her (like i always have wanted in my life) was happiness... I saw during all these years, how much she was miserable with my father who insulted her and mentally hurted her.. You know, I just wanted her to be happy...

And on that very special day that I discover this song, something happened which I'll never forget... She had met, only few weeks before, a man, with whom she seemed to come back to life, to born again... Me, having seen her so miserable before was totally fulfill.. Well.. almost...

As it was only few weeks that they met, I was still affraid that it didn't work and that my mum couldn't cope with this second heartache...

But, on this very October night... it was just as if I knew that it was going to work...

I was listening to this wonderful song reading it's meaningful lyrics, when my mom arrived from an evening at the Restaurant with the man she had met a few weeks ago...

And she was so happy... And me, listening to the song, reeding the lyrics... It was really as if it was a sign... When I read again the lyrics today, I realise that it applies exactly to my mother's story, even if i didn't realize it at the time... But, you know, these two people on the songs, who seems to want to begin something again, in spite of the drama which upset their lives... and the lyrics, it applies so much to my mother and my step-father !!!

I definitely think it was a sign... How much I would tell her all that I fell about this song and how that I'm happy for her...

That's why I share this with you, because I want so much that someone else know how I feel about this wonderful song...